Freeeedom:]

I know that there are things in my life that I want to change… But I am perfectly fine with them being that way, as long as I have HIM. I don’t want to be “just some girl” to him…Ever. This isn’t a game that I play, something to fill my time with, or something I’ve been waiting for my whole life. The perfect man is already taken…By me:] There’s nothing more I could ask of him.. [but for him to know that I love him, completely] Because once he knows, he won’t doubt us anymore. He won’t feel that I’m not trustworthy. It tears my heart into pieces to think that’s even true, even to the slightest bit. So this, I propose, will perhaps get your attention. I promise to you, Joel, that that I will always love you. Forever. I don’t care about what other people think or say or how much they may doubt us or what your cousin said[no offense] or what anyone else believes…. Because, well, the only one that believes this, is the only one[or two] that matters.[in this situation.] In twenty years from now, you will see. In fifty years from now, you will see. In seventy years from now, you will still see. That I’m desperately in love with you.

You can’t possibly know how much I care about you.

I feel that sometimes, you think I may not be listening, but when I get quiet, I ponder on the sweet words you’ve said. I want to get to know you more, and this is how I remember information that you tell me. I never want you to think anything different. I love you so much. I have never loved a person this much in my entire life. I didn’t know a person could feel this free and uplifted just by a single person. I don’t ever want you out of my life. I want us to continue this to the end, and even after. I really want to be with you, forever. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to keep you. You have the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen. Sometimes, I just look at you because I can’t keep my eyes off of you and it makes you smile. THAT is one of the best feelings in the world. The very best, though, is loving you.

Though we all understand that life is not fair, we still treat it like we believe it SHOULD be fair. We all know it should be, of course. But that doesn’t mean it ever will be fair. We can only try as hard as we can, the rest isn’t on our hands. It’s in God’s, or whatever creator you so choose to believe exists. On another note, this man makes everything wonderful in my life. I’m desperately in love with somebody, and I want to shout it to the world!! JOEL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH:] BAYBIIII!

Even when I’m falling over because I’m about to pass out, I still think of you. You are the most amazing person I’ve ever known. I know that we can potentially be the best couple there is. Our biggest fights are when I tell you you’re the most amazing person in the world, but you beg to differ. You know it’s me, and I know it’s you. I want to spend my life getting to know you better.